A Sad Sorry Writer I Am
During my elementary days, I received a few awards for winning writing competitions on district and division levels. In my high school and college years, none came by, but still people regarded me as a good (if not, above average) writer. I was not sad then.
Writing is the only thing I can do, and yes, it is what I do to put food on my table. I write for a living, but am I writing things I really like? What else can I do with it aside from earning me my paychecks?
I have a sister who is also a writer but she did not write for a living. She is a call center agent and she happens to be a better writer than I am.
I also had one workmate who is an all-around writer. He writes short stories, poems, essays and short novels both in English and in the vernacular. In addition to that, he also composes music. Like my sister, he does not write for a living. By the way, he is a website designer.
Both my sister and my workmate treat writing as a hobby. They write what they like. My sister does not like the nature of my job as a web content/SEO article writer. I should write something I like, she told me one evening during dinner at a local McDonald’s.
My workmate is a “fellow” of a writers society. He also belongs to a group of writers that release underground literary compilations. He also has access to many writing seminars or meet-ups. Among the perks he enjoys being a writer is that he gets to meet and socialize with other writers.
(I think I am the only writer who has social anxiety disorder.)
If you know the situation I am in now, you will know I am in a sad sorry state.
I have no mentors. I really have to encourage or motivate myself or else, no work, no pay.
I have to depend on writing as my source of livelihood. I have no special skills, vocational or whatever skills to apply for a non-writing position. With writing as my occupation, I wonder if I can treat it as a hobby. I don’t know if I can use it as a hobby to keep me sane.
(I wonder how newspaper writers handle their occupation.)
I am in a sad and sorry state.
But at least, I have a job, right?
I don’t care if it is an occupation or a hobby.
What’s important is that I can do it and that I do every writing task the best as I can to uphold my reputation.
As a web content/SEO article writer, I must do it “write” (pardon the pun) for the clients or else their business suffers.
I firmly believe I can bring my writing skills to the highest level.
I have faith in me as a writer. I believe I am one of the best in the world.
But still I am sad and sorry for the lack of support and camaraderie.
It’s alright. It’s okay.
As long as I can still put my ideas and thoughts on paper or MS Word.
The credits is always mine.